Dear Husband-to-be

 Dearest husband to be,

"1 week to go"

I have changed From someone who didn't believe in weddings to someone who is waiting to live her fairy

tale. I know I have tested your patience, not once, not twice, but many many times. Right from the very

first few days when I said that 'I need some time to be sure' , 'few months before I can say yes to my

parents', " couple of months" to get comfortable. I dont think anyone else would put up with me the way

you do. You make me feel special. You prioritise my happiness over yours.And sometimes I wonder how

lucky I am to find somone like you. Well, ' You found me" .

Vi...Thank you for putting up with my mood swings , my phobias, my insecurities and my tantrums. I

know it seems easy handling me, but its not :D. You are the best thing that ever happened to me. You

are my favourite person. My go-to person. You are the best listener I could ever ask for. I love you to the

moon and back.

I love you. I love holding your hands, hugging you tight ,kissing your lips, and cuddling to sleep. I find

comfort in you. I find comfort in your words, in your touch and in your warmth. I couldn't have asked for

better.

Sometimes I look back at our beautiful journey. Your first text ( Hi Dr.Ashwathi), long phone calls ( I ll be

your forever sleep parasite) , Our perfect first date ( Stranger), trips we took together, our little

adventures, not to forget our "kijji kijji" days. I fell for you, your openness , your honesty and everything

that you are. I know its just the beginning , beginning of something beautiful and sweet. You make me

smile in my hardest days. You make me feel special. I am the luckiest girl in the whole world. Words fall

short and I cant explain how much you mean to me.

We ll be married in a week. It was once my biggest fear. I know the efforts you've taken to make me get

over my " wedding phobia". From litstening to my Durandam stories from day 1, to addressing my

insecurities, my fears and my doubts, you've done a great job! My friends still wonder how I changed

from someone who didn't want a wedding to a happy bride-to-be! There's only one reason- YOU!

I promise to be by your side in your happiness and sorrows. I promise to make efforts from my side to

make our relation beautiful. I love you.

I love you

To infinity and beyond.

Chuchu

( Wrote this one week before our wedding, now its been 4 months since , I couldnt have asked for better

) 

Entering last phase of 3 years of Post graduation!

 I joined Lourdes on 29 th May 2019. Just a few more months left before I leave my department

and hospital. And then, Pop! Out into the real world.  There is a sense of peace

and calmness I experience while i work here, while I study here. There is a momentum that I

donot want to loose. A sense of security. A space to open up. A space to discuss. Few relations

that I made from here and life lessons that I learned. There is a weird feel I get when I think of

how life is going to be once I leave this place. I am so used to this routine -Waking up at 8,

punching before 8:30, rounds, discussions, classes, duties, department, and back to nightingale

hostel, few movies, eatouts and short trips. There was a sense of freedom I enjoyed in Kochi.

Life is never going to be the same again. Its a safe place, a closed space. Seniors used to tell us

that we grow close to department and madam as year passes by, and I get it now. A lot has

changed after I joined here, may be thats why post graduation period is crucial, about how it

shapes and moulds each one of us. Madam is not the kind of Head of the Departments I ve met

before, or will ever meet. She is more like a mentor. She is cosntantly worried about us,

motivates us, and guides us. She is proud of every student , and the littl

e achievements they

make in life. I hope i can make her proud someday.

(written on 31st Jan 2022)

New girl in the City!

 

I moved to Chandigarh on 17 th June, 2022.

I have been here for a couple of times before, first one before meeting V and a few times after meeting him. The City Beautiful. I remember someone telling me that this is one of the best places to li

ve in India. Well, I ll find out about that.

I ve only lived in places from where  I could get into an over night bus or train to go home. So, this, settling to a new city is different for me. Also I ve only been to places where I could meet and talk to many. I ve enjoyed my 5.5 yrs in TMC and my 3 years in Lourdes. And it was all because of my friends and colleagues. I am not sure whether I would be able to find a bunch here.

V is here. Other than him, I know our house owners, very sweet and kind, making me feel home.

I told V that I wanted to learn something new , and more importantly I wanted to talk to people, so I would join some classes. We went, I joined Acrylic painting class, but it turned out that I am the only student in my time slot, and it’s a one- to- one class, 1 hr everyday and it’s a pretty serious one. I even get to do homeworks.

This city is different. Or may be I feel its different from where I ve lived all these years. Different from kerala. I ve lived only in hostels- alone or with room mates, I should say, I enjoyed both. Here I m living in a rented house, with V. We stay on the top floor in a 3 storyed building. It’s a residential area. Quiet, and serene.

I am at present waiting for my results, I have plenty of free time, Why don’t I write down whats In my mind. I can capture photos, I ve plenty of them. But do they capture whats on my mind? Do I , after many years really remember or know what I was feeling when I shifted here.

When I was in school, at one point, I wanted to be pilot, another time a writer, then an astronaut , a doctor and what not. Well, you cant be many things at once, but whatever you are, you can still write. And read. I forgot the last time I read a book in fiction.

My new friend! Crazy , cute and naughty!

Water colour, one after a long time!

Fracture

In may 2017, after my final exams , we decided to chill! My parents were strict, they were sure to not let me go for that long girls trip, so I suggested one bike trip. Apparently I fell during our return. I sustained a fracture femur. #SOF , to be precise. I was taken to my own hospital, emergency OT, fixed the fracture. First 4 months of 2017 was me studying for final exams. And next 3 months was me lying in bed. It didn't feel Good. I think that's the worst time I ever had. Then I joined internship. But I had a limp. I wasn't quite sure whether this would go away or not, but I really prayed. So after another 3 months I could walk like normal. 2017 wasn't much of a Good year to me. I passed my exam, that was the only good thing. So , I had one nail in my leg, I decided to get rid of it. This time, it was pretty fine. Oh ,I can go on writing about it, but I don't want to, still I want it to be written here, In my blog. This picture is my legs when i got to step my foot outside home after very long time!

I'm back!

So, no one missed me! Because hardly anyone reads anything these days . My language didn't improve either. So it's the same old me. Why do I write something here? Because no one reads. Because I want to write. And Facebook, lot many people read, I don't think mine is too good for that. It's peaceful here. So, here. I haven't changed much over these time. Last month I met sai meera, my friend from school, she and her parents said I still look the same like when they saw me in school, so. Perspectives haven't changed much either. I will now be posting photos that I took, ( yes,I have an Instagram account), my thoughts, memories and what not! This is like an open diary. So its welcome back to myself! As this is my first post after a while I would better add a photo , Which probably will not have any relation with this post, that's a welcome back post to me! :D Hoping to be here for long!